OK. So I have made it and after 3 more months living in Nigeria (a total of 9 where I was totally immersed in work 7 days per week whilst there with no outlet other than a week out every month) I finally gave up the ghost at the end of August realising that my health and state of mind were not in a good place.
I had saved some money to take me to a place that means I can relax for a short time but I could not bring myself to remain there longer. To purely remain for the financial gain at the same time as totally giving up a happy social life (and time as it ticked) in return is not a healthy way to live for me.
So now I am back to Europe and currently in the UK playing the waiting game at the same time as I am making decisions and floating ideas on what to do and how to go about it next.
Long-term plan is (always) to find that warm place where my heart and soul and great companions live within an easy distance. This is what has drawn me to Spain in Europe. However, that is still a fluid plan and shorter-term I need to find some work before funds deplete. Thus I am exploring many angles to see what I can achieve
Looking at house or pet-sitting to possibly locate myself in places that may appeal to live in later on but also thinking to work as a temp in London again leading up to the New Year – a guarantee of friends, life and some money in (obviously also paying more money out of course so it is all relative). Also considering courses and TEFL raises its head again as a plan I have considered for some time now.
Do I simply hike off to Spain, find a spot and then spend a few months creating my training e-book and website and blogsites for poetry, coaching, etc? Do I enrol for a course (or courses) to take me further along the healing/training road?
Still no nearer knowing really but after 2 months of UK now and being on the IOW again, I am now waiting to see what occurs with the “operation” I now need. This is actually an injection apparently into the hip bone to stop it from disintegrating fully!
Having returned to the Island in September, I re-registered with my old doctor ( 2006 was last time I saw her) had a whole session of blood and breathing tests as well as x-rays organised to ensure I am in fit condition. So this is why I am still here and will be until end November it seems.
Having finally disposed of the main bulk of my stored items (although the idea of selling them all off quickly didn’t happen so most of them were given away) I have enrolled on a few sites for house and pet-sitting (mainly unpaid!) and am looking to see where to travel next.
My summer wardrobe was pretty ineffective here but a few little shopping expeditions to the cheaper optional clothing stores (Primani and the odd charitable place) proved worthwhile and not too expensive. These warmer layers have helped me somewhat and hopefully I can now feel less chilled (my blood is thickening anyway I think AND we have mild weather at this time) for a while.
Exploring too many ideas again (in and outside of my head of course!) – TEFL courses in Spain or even Thailand, Reiki for animals ( and people) counselling certification and now reading a great book on NLP.
SO many ideas and STILL so little time for me to achieve everything I have ever wanted to do.
So I have to knuckle down and accept some things will not be possible to achieve. This is very frustrating as when young I was taught that NOTHING is impossible if you want it enough – a creed I have always followed.
Having said that the time factor was never mentioned and NOW I have begun my 70th decade and am realising that I may have to prioritise even more effectively and quickly.
Certainly I possibly need to spend less time thinking/planning and more time taking action. Otherwise as the sands of time run down they may run out before I get to action thoughts and plans in my heart and mind.
But then again, life is a waiting game and I therefore need to take a few deep breaths and have the patience to know that the universe WILL provide and if I relax I will always have the wealth of health.